Monday, July 24, 2017

Sem 3 - goodbye!







last kelas wit Sem 3 on Psy Medicine. and perhaps, last kelas as well i am teaching the students on Psy Medicine. there'll be someone new sits in and teach dis subject. a brand new lad, wit a brand new skill etc.


i love teaching Psychiatry. apart from my specialty/major in Psychology - Psychiatry is wat i do and it is wat i fall in love wit. i hav worked in Psychiatry setting before, and being able to teach the stdnts and share some stories, knowledge on wat u did and wat u went thru - was the best thang, seriously. bdk2 bosan kalo ko jst ngajar and baca slides. trust me - opah aku pun can do dat better. they wanna more about ur experience and such, and dat makes the whole picture, complete.


even ko score in ur degree, first honors class segala - tp bila mengajar ko berleter, u cannot relate and make the stdnts see the real fact, they will learn nthg.


and not many yg suka mengajar Psychiatry pun. unless ko org baru, and ko hav no choice, no specialty - dats different.


i shld be looking at dis a change of perspective. must be somethg good about dis. Allah knws better.






Thursday, July 20, 2017

the u.




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it is weird when u think u knew someone way better than u knw urself well. it is weird u hardly knw urself coz ur more interested to knw others and u hav no time to knw urself well.


or perhaps, someone knws the u dat goes to bed early bcoz u jst cant talk. u wanted to, but u jst cant. or u jst dun knw how. or the u dat doesnt stop talkin when they r excited.


i am sure someone knws dat u stays up late bcoz ur head is too fcukin busy, no matter wat u tell it to settle down. or u woke up in the mid of the nite, staring into the endless dark and emptiness coz of dat sthg, strugglin to get the hell outta ur skull. 


there must be many, who knw the u dat u wish other ppl tot u were. or how ppl wish they cld be u, but u urself refused to be one. and more dat knw the u, dat other ppl actually think u r. or how they adore u and u wish u cld shut em the fuck up and shoo em away.

and perhaps a few knw u - at least - knw the u dat u think u r.

but God sake - only i knw the u dats left - when the rest of u has gone away.