here r certain ppl in the world dat jst dun care. they r called ignorant. while it is, ignorance is a bliss - it is also a fcukin annoyance to some ppl, like me. ignorant, as their name suggests - build a fortress around their life wit ignorance and fcuk-i-dun-dun-fcukin-care, and the fortress keeps em safe and sound in their own perfect lil world - but still, giv em a sense of comfortability to laugh at other ppl who care and to say "wat a pathetic fool they r..".
u cant go to someone and say "y u gotta sweatin on all these? rileks la bro.. be cool!". no, u cant when u dun knw a thang. rileks la bro, my sweet arse. i guess dat is how ppl r - some wit the burden of the world on their back, some w/o even a single bloody friggin chip pun on their shoulders. and it is up to the one who cares - to take care of the ignorant, bcoz at the end of the day - the ignorant wld never understand the reasons y u care so much.. and also u cant understand the complexity, or the simplicity for dat matter - the mind of ignorant. seriously, they jst dun care about u, about the rest of the world. and yes, seriously i shld cool down now, and stop bein a bitch.
coz ari ni, aku puasa.
a few thgs i am grateful for dis week, and one of em is being myself. i knw i am not golden. i am aluminium at best - but to be frank, dat is the only thg i can be grateful for dis week. it hadnt been a quite a good week, but i survive. i am grateful for being me, and for able to accept myself the way i am, tho i cld do wit some drastic weight loss. haih.
there r days when thgs go as usual, as ordinary as any other given days - but theres sthg not rite and i cant put my fingers on it - and it ticked me off. the day ruined thoroughly, until someone at random says "hi" to u. and u smile, taking the burden off, lil by lil. and then another person called u by name out of the blue, askin u how ur day goes, and some small unimportant talk, before he walked away waving u goodbye wit the friendliest smile. u stumbled into another fren, asking u "pi mana Shah?", u smile and answer him politely, see him laugh and u cant understand y he laughed - but its ok bcoz it isnt derogatory laugh - but a friendly laugh. and then u look up to the sky - and see the calm blueness of the God's playground, the sun up there shines brightly and u knw its a beautiful day, dat everythg will be jst fine.
so, i am grateful for being me. me, myself. dats the only thg dat walk me thru the week, so far. the world is and ugly, hostile place but is also gives u an equal opportunity to see its beautiful, friendly side - only if u wanna see it. and only if u choose to see it well. i knw i am not much of a +ve person, but i absorb the positiveness of ppl arnd me, and these few days - i felt like being abandoned a lil by ppl arnd me; as always busy schedules, works, classes and such - but the street, the wind, the sun and sky hav all sort of positive energy and they wont abandon u even in their worst days.
dat, somehow make me believe dat its a beautiful world, after all. and all those manic, major depressive disorders dat i learned, and i taught to the stdnts, and the symptoms which i recognize dearly, all subside to oblivion, thanks for letting me havin these days.
dat i dun need rite now is a person who wants to argue about wanting to compromise. they suck, seriously they reall do.. :-)
bcoz a feel good writing lifts up dull, depressing days.