Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
- dat u need to join me in the gym and work out - even if its for health reasons - jst shhh.. really.
- dat ur favorite clothes r gettin tite - seriously idiot, shove it.
- u love eating veggies! or fruits! nay over cheese! and humus dat shyte is awesome! - no. jst no.
- dat u used to be a size 0 but hav really packed on the kilos and now r tippin the scales at larger sizes. zip gal. zip. it.
- ever since the birth of ur last child, 10 yrs ago - u hav been strugglin to lose those last 5 kilos - unless u want to add a zero behind dat 5, dun even think of opening ur mouth. unless u open up ur bloody mouth for ur Lecithin of Shaklee.
- u pine for ur favorite ice cream, pizza, or my daily dose of karipap. tiap2 pagi ko tnya 'Shah ko beli apa for bekpes.. eh, sedap nye karipap ko beli..'. i dun care, u cld eat a gallon of ice cream and it wld make no difference.
- u drink tea tarik kurang manis (for 3 times a day) to save the calories - dis makes no sense to me at all, i cant even compute it.
- when u identify some mythical large part of ur body when i am discussin my growing chest - ur arms/thighs/tummy/eye lids/feet/wrists r all rail think, so bite me.
- stop doin the lean in confide thg where u whisper some atrocity u indulged in and tell me how bad u feel about it. chances r - i've eaten the same thang in multiples recently - dammit ur not making e feel any better.
- stop patting ur belly as if we r some how on the same team - shyt we r not - if u lost a kilo u wld only hav 1 boob. trust me.
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
i woke by 5am, i cant really sleep. by 6am everybdy dah bgun. mmg kami plan nak jemaah beramai2, bertakbir raya as usual.
abg ngah imamkan solat. penuh ruang tamu mak yg basically tak la besar mana pun.masing2 was so in deep wit own tot. selesai solat, kami bertakbir raya. anak2 abah yg lelaki, we take turn bertakbir raya - jst exactly the way we did all dis while, semasa abah around. now dat he is no longer around, it is our tggjwb to keep dis goin.
aku rindukan abah. esp waktu2 mcm ni. rasa kosong sgt. abah shld ere now. abah shld be arnd like he used to. he's the source of strength. for me and for all of us.
its still raining. aku akan ke kubut abah after solat raya nanti. since by ptg nanti, aku dah nak balik Ipoh.
aku hope mak ok. since semua adik2 aku r in dis time around. penuh rumah mak. and mak as usual wont leave the dapur and will sure all of us well fed.
salam eid ul adha. maaf zahir dan batin.
Monday, October 14, 2013
i am having the urge to write. but i am not sure of wat. ofkoz theres a lot of thgs goin on today, revolving around me - dat i feel like to share wit others - but i am not sure if its goin to be worth it.
its been raining since morning. and the kids r so restless they wanted to be out of the house but their mothers wont let em. i was thinking of goin to kubur abah since early in the morn., but then again - its rainin.
mak is bz kat dapor wit her daugthers and in laws. as usual. and me - i am stuck in ere wit thgs in mind. cruisning thw idiotbox is the only best thang to do. shldve bring in few books to read. shldve bring my sport attires so at least aku bley pi gym nearby.
as if it'll be open up as usual.
wanted to go out for a drink. but alone? i dun think so. and i had few frens around, if i want to meet up for a cuppa. but then again, they r out wit their own thang. and to go oit to the town at time like dis - sigh, i knw it aint a good idea.