Thursday, August 22, 2013

The Best of Debussy











and Google Doodle brought me here.
such a beautiful thang - i instantly fall for it.

happy bird day, Claude Debussy!






Wednesday, August 14, 2013

raya no-more.







done wit the first 2hrs of teaching. first day of working after like a week plus aku bercuti raya. and basically - yeah i think u knw it alrite - mood aku ke laut. it took time to really gets me in the rite kinda mood to catch up wit all the stdnts nye hal neh.. kelas, buku log, clinical etc etc. jap lagi 2 jam, and ptg - i think i need to re-schedule. aku ada kelas dgn budak2 farmasi - but then again, aku need to settle up thgs regarding my medical check-up. 


tarikh registration dah dekat - tp still byk benda nak settle.


ramai member2 yg tak nampak btg idung. perhaps dorg still cuti lagik. perhaps dorg tak dak teaching hrs, so dorg decided to sambung cuti - tambah2 lagi skang skol holidays. perhaps dorg pun as bz as i am - or perhaps, buat2 bz lah. ke hulu ke hilir wit a piece of paper in their hands. 


ok, forget it. aku perlu bersangka baik. heh!


katanya.










Tuesday, August 13, 2013

slmt pg!





argkh. dah lama tak update. byk sgt xtvt dgn fmly. plus a bit malas. byk bnda nak kngsi, tp peram lama2 aku jdi malas..

ptg/mlm ni dah nak balik Ipoh. as  usual, to thk of it pun aku dah malas. tmbh2 plak, esk dah keje. yucks. kalo tak dak teachin esk, sah2 aku smbg je cti. kak yang and cik msg2 balik Khamis. argkh, mencik.

didnt catch any falling stars. dpt nyamuk and bunga api instead. thank God no peluru and bom tgn. hahaha by 4am, ujan lbt. lbt gler. so masuk tdo je la..

mak and kak yang dok kat dapur. cucur udang for breakie. anther argkh!, there goes my diet into the drain.

diet? wtf? haha











Friday, August 9, 2013

raya, 2nd day.






2 Syawal, 1434. Friday.





finally i am back in ere, alhamdulillah. i long to be in ere, for dis is where i belong. and dis is where i think i wanna be. 


by 11.15am - aku alrdy on the road. jalan bley tahan byk keter, tp tak la jam. and by 5pm - aku dah dpn rumah mak wit all the others. it is nice to be around, surrounded by the familiar thang, food etc. and its heaven.


trow is gonna another long day. mak ajak pusing Taiping - melawat mak long, makcik etc. aku dun keen - tp pi je lah. entertain mak. and i will be goin wit semua adik beradik aku - konvoi ramai2. and nak pi kubur abah dan pak teh jugak - before dat.


so far i had a great time. aku really look for thgs yg aku mkn - risau kalo dpt balik GERD aku. and so far, alhamdulillah. aku refused all the soft drinks, and no such orange juice wit rendang - jst exactly mcm mak pesan aku, like every year.


ok. off for dinner. mcm kenduri. will be back for more. see ya!









second day raya.
pinkish!







first day!
















Tuesday, August 6, 2013

selamat hari jadi, mak!








Hajjah Zaharah bt Mohd. Rejab.
my mum!! the best-est.




btw, its mak's birthday today.
yang ke 57. 


shes the mother. and shes the dad -
for all of us now.
shes strong. i knw she is.
tho we never knw how it is - for her, inside.


mak,
along doakan semoga Allah pjgkan umur
murahkan rezeki, dlm kesejahteraan
dan kesihatan tubuh badan 
fizikal dan mental -
semoga mak terus dpt mengabdikan diri kepada Nya,
dan diberikan peluang utk kami anak beranak
membalas jasa mak pd kami..


thes no other, but u.
along sygkan mak..
sgt sgt!


selamat menyambut ulang tahun kelahiran mak!





salam eid mubarak!













for all the readers out there
and the haters as well -
Salam Eid ul Fitr al Mubarak!!

ampunkan segala salah silap
terlanjur kata, buruk tatasusila dan halalkan makan dan minum juga.
semoga Syawal yang bakal tiba
menjanjikan kesejahteraan dan
kebahagiaan utk kita semua
insyaallah.

Selamat Hari Raya
Aidilfitri 1434
maaf zahir
dan
batin..









nano.









i am listening to dis song
again and again
tonite.

and i aint sure y.

hav a pleasant nite.









Monday, August 5, 2013

i wanna..















i wanna fill my mind wit positive tots, so there will be no room for negativity. i wanna fill my days wit effective action - thus, there will be no room for laziness. i wanna fill my body up wit nutritious food - and there will be no room for toxic junk. life is too short for me - i want to enjoy it as it is, and i refuse to succumb into any disease.


i want to fill my life wit love, and there will be no room for hate. i wanna love everybdy around me -and i wanna acknowledge it well, so they'll know it well. i wanna fill my work wit challenge, and there will be no room for discontent.


fill ur heart wit goodness, and there'll be no room for evil. fill the world wit beauty, and there will be no room for darkness. i wanna fill my tot wit peace, and there will be no room for conflict. i wont let any negativity bring me down, for dis is my life - and u hav no right of doin so. 


let us move wit confidence, wnd there will be no room for doubt. i want to fill my spirit wit abundance, there'll be no place for distress.and i wanna fill my moments wit joy, and there will be no room for regret.


and ur welcome to share it all, if u want to. but if u hav no positivism, no thanks - for i need no conflict, in my life. 









running around in circle.










salam. its 27th Ramadhan.


coupla days left for Eid ul Fitr. and again - nothg much in ere.i am not saying its completely nothg - but to compare wit other places, i consider dis as nothg la kot. but then again - it wldnt be dat bad la kot - its the different places wit different environment; i think dat makes me feel kinda OK.


i think the traffic is everywhere, and its gonna be worst by trow or a day after trow. i thank God since Sabtu lagik dah smpai sini. w'pun it is a bit sesak last Saturday, tp ok la kot. and again - berbakul2 jugak la bermaki-makian - tp in a good, dlm-hati kinda way. esp driving in dis place. i mean - tak pyh wait till u arrive in the town itself la kot.. nak masuk to dis state pun msg2 drive mcm gampang. i am sorry - gampang nyer driver mmg mana2 pun ada, tp personally aku rather drive in KL or Penang God sake. Jinjang pun tak pe lah. 


tp sini - aku tak bley blah. dats y each time aku in ere, bley kira berapa kali aku ke KB. aku mls. beside it is sesak like everyday, the drivers pun.. argkh. i am not tryin to be bias ke aper. but dis is my personal view je kot. i dun mind if u dun agree. i am agree to disagree. hehe


---


aku keep reminding myself to stay assertive - bukan passive or aggressive. kalo aku tak suka - aku akan ckp, in a nice way. and kalo the other party cldnt accept it - aku back off. coz relevantly, i see any reason of fighting over thgs yg aku tak suka - tp the other party love of doin. dan aku try to calm down, and stay away from being aggressive - everybdy will hate me for dat. 


hav a great Monday. 












sigh.










Saturday, August 3, 2013

held high.













theres no reason to be dismayed by wat others say or do. i knw - sometimes u cant help it. its jst happen. but then again -if they want to behave negatively, dats their problem. and it aint urs.


no person knws wats best for u - more than u do. u knw better. no person knws wat ur up to, wat ur capable of accomplishing - more than u do. certainly other ppl can support u, and encourage u - and can be of grat help to u - as much as u to them. see the good and the positive in those around u and connect wit it. and pay no mind to those who wld drag u down the drain wit their criticism. theres no need to let someone's opinion stop u. for dammit - its jst an opinion.


u r who u r. regardless of wat others think - say. or do. ur unique aand worthy. and filed wit great possibilities. its u urself - u hav to knw u urself. and explore it well. focus ur energy. ur awareness, and ur efforts on those possibilities. ur here, ur capable, and wit ur head held high - u knw dat the best is yet to come.


gluck.




travel light? wat?








bley?



i hate packing. i mean - kemas2 beg for traveling. coz aku had dis tendency to travel light-less. semua nak bwk. tensen lah. ni nak pakai. ni nak guna. ni nak baca etc etc. and aku ended up bwk like semua, which is - at the end of the day, tak sentuh pun.


the which bag to bring is always the question. and how many bags as well. the small bag? the big bag? medium one? or both? or all?


travel light? my arse.






Lego House.









..




I'm gonna pick up the pieces,
And build a Lego house
If things go wrong we can knock it down

My three words have two meanings,
There's one thing on my mind
It's all for you

And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got you to keep me warm
If you're broken I will mend you and I'll keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now, now

I'm gonna paint you by numbers
And colour you in
If things go right we can frame it and put you on a wall

And it's so hard to say it but I've been here before
Now I'll surrender up my heart
And swap it for yours

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now

Don't hold me down
I think my braces are breaking, and it's more than I can take

And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got you to keep me warm
If you're broken I will mend you and I'll keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down

[Album version ending:]
And out of all these things I've done I will love you better now

[Music video version ending:]
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now

I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I will love you better now




Lego House
Ed Sheeran.



---


listen to the song.
and u'll fall for it instantly.




Friday, August 2, 2013

hope..









hope?



sometimes it seems dat all the news is bad. sometimes it seems dat the world around u is tumbling down - hopelessly downhill and theres nthg anyone can do about it. or to stop it, as well. i knw how it is. i knw how it feels, God sake.


yet - dat is never the case. for the more difficult life becomes - the more motivated everyone becomes to make real, substantial, positive changes. nthg is ever as bad as it seems. becoz when situations become difficult - ppl become determined.


and when enuff ppl become determined enuff - good, positive and valuable thgs begin to happen. hope - which may hav previously been nearly impossible to see, begins to spring into action. and when the darkness becomes unbearable - someone will step forward and shine a light. and dat light - will inspire others, and others. and others.


i gez hope is always there. it always be there. the more it is needed, the more powerful and effective is grows.






ning's selagi ada.














selagi ada.. (cinta), of ning baizura.


i always love dis song. even now.
i remember listening to dis, again and again -
for sthg dat happened in life.
but now - even thgs r right,
i still do listen to it.
wit a different feeling.

and i gez it doesnt matter.
i still love it.






ra-ra mood.












boikot la sgt.





salam. its 24th Ramadhan, 1434.


last day at work. had like 4hrs of teaching, for today. an hr tolak since pagi tadik grand assembly wit all the stdnts, staffs. so kelas 9 to 10am, and 11 to 12.30pm. under control, yeap yeap.


sumer org dah dlm mood nak ber-ra-ra. i mean, beraya.. bg aku - biasa2 je kot. eager to get back and gather up wit adik-beradik, yes. i always hav dat urge. and my mum as well. beside some few other important ppl in life around me - the fmly je yg aku ada in dis life. i want to make sure dat they knw dat aku syg dorang, aku care of em all - sementara aku still hav the chance, and still around. aku refuse to regret of not havin the chance doin so - when aku still hav the peluang to do so. so - bg aku; raya ni tak de pe sgt pun. dulu time budak2 ye la kot. raya bg aku - is more for a grand family gathering, get together, spend time sama and such. 


u mght not agree, but its ok. at least dats the definition of raya bg aku - raikan seadanya post-Ramadhan, and the rest of it is more towards bonding, family time. i hav to be around - for mana tau; one day, when i need em to be around - and they will. insyaAllah.


cuti still berbaki. tak tau nak selit mana lagik. aku mcm tiap2 hari ada kelas. bley amek cuti raya pun starting next Monday, smpai coming Monday je. Tuesday dah ada kelas. haih. tak pa lah. sket2 dah la kot, eh? 


and to be frank - akuu tak prepare pe2 pun for raya. duit raya utk minimonsters, beli biskut sket2 and baju raya for mak and Soleh, baju raya aku sendiri tak beli la plak. haha.. mcm malas je. aku cuma got myself 2 pairs of baju melayu wit sampin - itu pun dah pakai once before. cukup lah. pakai pe yg ada. 


baju melayu tak pe byk2. aku suka. and tiap2 Jumaat aku bley pakai pi ofc. hehe


and frankly speakin - raya tak mcm dulu dah. masuk ni dah kali kedua wit no abah around. tp alhamdulillah - mak, adik2 and other love ones still around.


and i gez dats all dat matters.