i think i like dis. good song. good lyrics. i knw, but u gotta listen to it. and watch the vid alrite, rite.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Sunday, February 17, 2013
y do we so frequently feel, "wat i do doesnt really make a difference?". we drown into the same shyte, we run arnd the same circle and we fall into a familiar error - using the wrong yardstick wit whch to measure goodness.
we thk dat good actions r really important only in time of crisis, only when an xtraordinary demand calls for xtraordinary effort.
yet the time of crisis is but a small opportunity given each of us to cntribute to other ppl's lives.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Friday, February 15, 2013
Monday, February 11, 2013
there r bad days and worse days. days when i am consumed wit so much fear its almost like i cldnt bear it.
i knw there r other ppl out there who r suffering more than wat i am xperiencing, but smehow i feel like i only c my own prob.and dat no matter wat other ppl say, my fear is real, and its crippling me.
i knw i shld learn to accept myslf, my flaws and all, and learn to love myslf despite my imperfections, bt stimes its jst so hard.
wats wrong wit me? y is it so hard for me to love myslf? y is it so hard to let go of my fear and leare to realize dat i deserve the best in life.
i wish dat someday dat i will be able to set myslf free.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
bgun awal. terus kuar cari bekpes. mak ckp makcik kat dpn jalan taman rumah angah ni niaga.. tp tutup. org lain raya, org lain sakan tutup kedai kueh bagai.
and aku got no choice - aku kena rayau and find some. aku ended up kat pasar bagan serai wit Haziq the monmon. byk org niaga. and kueh 5 ketul RM2. wow. raya2 neh naik harga ya? ipoh pun still 4 ketul RM1.00.. aku diam je. and rembat RM8, since ramai rakyat jelata kat rumah angah..
lps breakfast, aku ajak mak, kak ngah and kak yang pi kubur abah. semlm lagi aku nak singgah.. tapi since dah gelap, aku pi pg ni je.. aku buat tahlil ringkas, and off we go. time like dis - when everyone is in - terasa sgt abah tak dak. tho waktu abah ada, abah lebih suka duduk and perhatikan anak cucu dia je rather than participate, but the presence is all dat matters.
balik, aku terus start projek aku - ngecat ruang tamu rumah mak. now dat mak dah menyewa rumah dpn rumah ngah - aku cld see shes way happy. mak dah start decorating the hse the way she wants it to be - for aku tau mak mmg suka kemas2 rumah and hias rumah jst the way she wanted it to be. rumah mak ada 3 bilik, 2 bilik air. condition baik, and she likes it. mak bwk byk barang2 dia dr rumah kat kampung in Kubu Gajah - and aku brought jer a tv and few coupla thgs.
nak cat rumah is sthg else - aku tak brp bagus when it comes to DIY thang pun. and hav to deal dgn mininyets yang merenyut nak dis nak dat, nak tlg etc - is sthgs else. aku ended up halau semua org balik rumah ngah, and settled thgs alone.
by 1pm, settled. aku lenguh tengkok2, penat giler. dah bukak langsir bagai.. now hav to fix it again. cuci kipas siling, mop lantai, cuci sumer bilik air..
aku suka tgk mak happy. and aku buat ni sumer pun as jst a small contribution to make her happy. as long as mak suka, kami anak beranak pun suka. mak need some place on jer own. some space.
and now - aku dah tergolek. tambah plak post-lunch and mak plak yg masak.. aiyoooo kalo aku gemuk balik, sah2 la bukan salah aku. ok!
Friday, February 8, 2013
Thursday, February 7, 2013
dah la. i shldnt let the ular thang disturb me and the rest of the day. dah la kelas full blast ari neh..