Thursday, November 28, 2013

kemuncup aka love grass.

kemuncup aka love grass.

when i was little, my parents wld say - 'dun chew ur fingernails!', so i did it in private. they wld say, dun pick ur face - so i wld pick at scabs in places they cldnt see. one time i scratched and tore at the skin on my knee until it became gangrenous and smelled like a rotting flesh.

disgusted? so i am.

but it gave me relief. and they wld say, 'dun worry'. only i did. always annoying.. 

once, i was playing at the playground, and i was wearing a long track-bottom. me and my frens we had fun runnin, playin as if the whole world belongs to us. it was nearly time for me to go home when i realized my track-bottom were loaded wit kemuncup (love grass) from the field. my stomach felt sick. i felt light-headed and nauseous.

wat if kalo mak tgk suar aku yg penuh kemuncup neh? she wld likely scold, yell and probably hit me. at the very least. darn i was terrified.

so i sat down at the corner of the playground, and i plucked the love grass one by one for wat seemed like hours and hours. when it was time to go home, i was certain i had earned a full-blown beating.

except dis time - DIS time. i got lucky. she din notice. OR, she was in a good mood. either way, dat moment in time was cemented in my head, until now.

so much so - dat to dis day, aku sgt2 tak gemar merayau di padang or park yg penuh dgn kemuncup. and each time - dat moment where aku sat by the corner of playground, anxiously plucking off the love grass. hoping and praying hard dat thgs will be OK.

those days.


if u want the world to be a better place, then u gotta work to make it a better place. if u see sthg as a problem, then take responsibility for implementing a workable solution - its a waste of time to prove how bad thgs r. darn it wont help.

instead - put yr tots, ur passion, ur energy and efforts into making thgs better.

when u find some aspect of life to be frustrating, or unjust, or abusive - dun go and complain, or assign blame. u gotta come up wit a positive alternative.

life changes in every moment. its inevitable. u like it or not, life will keep changing. so use dis moment to make some changes for the better. the future does not hav to equal to the past. u can choose ur future by wat u do wit wat u hav, rite now.

and just becoz ur stuck in a difficult situation, doesnt mean u'll be forever there. for its up to u - make some changes for the better, and move ur life in the direction u choose. 

or u stay there, and get obsolete. 


hav a great Thor-sDay, peep.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013


its been a month now since aku last update the blog. as usual - procrastination do me bad. and when i am about to conclude em in a writing, i think its wat too late since cerita pun dah basi. thus - the failure. furthermore, lately i've been doin kinda bz myself - wit life, work and such. 

today - aku managed to settle coupla thgs at work. i am done wit appointment dgn new stdnts on their HSR nye tajuk - few of em aku sent em back for minor alteration, and some of em aku luluskan saja since they've been corresponding wit me thru email and watsapp and such. and as usual - i'll try as good as i can to facilitate em, rather frustrate em all. long as they do hav the effort, i am all out to help. as easy as dat.

by 1pm, aku already left the building. i am still feverish, and long for a proper crash. so i took half-day off, and head home. hoping dat i'll catch some crashing - but at the end of all dis - i found  myself lying there in the middle of the pillows, staring into the air, aimlessly. dammit i am sooo feel like crashin, but the bloody eyes refused to do so. sigh.

so i hit the road by 6pm, and off to Kolam Renang DBI kat stadium Ipoh. been a while. and i do hope it'll be a good idea, since i am havin a temperature and i shld be berendam to keep myself cold. and it went well. aku siapMaghrib kat sana, and continue my berenang and such. dah lama aku tak berenang, tho kelas berenang pun tak abes - at least aku still can do the simple one. aku stayed in the water rite till 8.45pm smpai kolam tutup. and literally aku was shiverin sejuk. huhuhu

and trow, aku still hav few task pending dat i need to get it done before end of the month. November is ending, Disember will be coming in w/in coupla days. darn how fast time flies.

i gotta go, nak iron baju. esok batik yaww.. haih. i hate batik day, God sake.