its been a while since aku last balik sini to Kubu Gajah - they place we belong. the place where we grew up and the house where it is full of memories, laughter - until the day abah left us. tak silap aku, dah dkt 3 4 bln aku tak balik sini.. eversince mak pindah to Bagan Serai.
thgs r so different around in ere. so different aku hardly recall a thang. byk pokok dah mak upah org tebang - since they left tak terjaga. stor yg abah used to kept thgs pun dah usang sgt - most of us; anak2 abah kurang amek port sgt since mmg dari kecik abah tak suka org lain kucar kacir kan brg2 dia.. thus we r like dat. tv abah beli no longer ok eversince abah left us. pokok jambu abah tanam tepi rumah pun dah mati, no longer supply us the pink guava it used to before.
aku sapu daun2 kering and bakar as usual. nyamuk jgn kira. penat aku lawan tampar, till aku penat and malas nak amek port. the minimons enjoyed main api while helped me a bit - since mak diorng kat dlm rmh, sekor2 naik tanduk. angah atas pokok manggis. acik and Haziq main api. kakak dok perabes sirap. Damia muka kerut2 tak tahan nyamuk.
aku rindu abah. time like dis, aku really wish abah around. during last PRU12 abah sgt semangat. he wld stick to the idiotbox to watch the result.
and today itself - 05052013, cukup sethn abah first day masuk wad in Hospital Selayang. the day when abah was so disoriented - tp tetap nak solat Subuh and he ended up basahkan his whole tgn bju jst for "abah nak amek wuduk". he had a mood swing, hardly remember anythg at all.
and aku remember as well - coupla days from now was when the specialist broke the news saying dat "i am sorry, i knw dis is hard.. but he'll stand a chance of maximum 3 mths only" and aku broke to tears like nbdy biz infront of the docs, nurses et al. and abah - he stayed calm. and motionless.
dah nak sethn. and aku still stuck in here.
mak still kat tmpt ngundi. lambatnya nak balik Bgn Serai.