Saturday, February 16, 2013

sigh.








cant sleep tonite, dis is not the first time pun, but its been few days now since aku balik dr Bgn Serai dat is dr rumah mak. i am not sure wats the problem - but i gez the problem is not a problem any more to me now.. now dat i am kinda used to it. 


but then again - its different when ur around the house, u cant sleep yet ur havin a clear mind - for there r a lot of thgs can be done. and to stay awake wit thgs runnin around in ur head - ur tryin to figure out wat the heck it is and u keep runnin in the same circle for u cant find the answer - well dat is somethg else.


and i gez - i am now in one. the running around, not knwg wat the hell is goin wrong.


i knw its weird. when ur keep on thinkin, yet ur not sure wats in ur mind. u wish u cld tear up yr head up, take out yr brain and walk off jst like dat. thus u need not to think about anythg at all. 


perhaps when u get ur soul rest, and u need not to think about thinking, anymore. but then again - how sure it is?


i need some sleep. i cant be like dis, like forever. and taking my sleepin pills, i dun wanna do dat anymore. it wldnt do me good. or perhaps, it wld. at least for tonite. jst for tonite.


coz i cant afford bein behind the wheel up north trow, in dis kinda me. perhaps, dats the reason y i hardly sleep kot. i had no choice, to choose. and dis one - i jst need to face it, and get it done.. at least for dis time around. and by noon, insyaAllah - thgs will be jst like the way it shld be.


and i'll be home. pretending as if nthg goes wrong.


sigh.











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