a long day, today. woke up as early as 5am - lepas Subuh aku dah kuar and on the road - heading for Pangkor. dah lama aku tunda the clinical visit, i need it to get done before anythg at all. by 9am, aku dah kat Lumut Jetty, tunggu ferry. terlepas ferry at 9, aku wasted about 45mins tunggu the next ferry.
had a fruitful discussion wit Toden and Raja - stdnts2 aku yg posting there in KK Pulau Pangkor. spending like 3hrs, by 1pm - aku excused. aku need to be back there in kolej before 3.30pm - ada majlis penutupan minggu orientasi kursus2 pengkhususan (post-basic) and they jemput all the ketua2 program, timbalan2 pengarah, and pengarah itself. aku thanked God, sharp 3.30pm aku parked kete kat bwh, and the majlis baru je started.
by 5pm, majlis selesai. hi-tea, sembang2 jap, and aku naik ofc. 5.30pm - turun terus, smbg keje semlm as juri pertandingan erobik 2013 budak2 neh. kinda nice and aku enjoed the whole session. by 7.15pm aku dah otw back, 8.10pm aku balik there in the Dewan Sri Perdana - since jadi juri jgk for choir bdk2 neh. aku agak buta musik, tp each time budak2 neh mintak tlg, it is hard for me to say no.
10.55pm, finally i am home.
physically tired. mentally too. perhaps becoz of the both - aku cant help feeling numb. a bit left out. ntha lah, perhaps jst a feeling la kot. aku rasa lemau sgt sehari dua neh. tak semangat. byk mende dlm otak, tatau nak citer how and to whom. basically semua org keliling aku bz. and aku rasa aku pun bz tungang langgang jgk..
its January. few dyas to go, its gonna be end of January. and for the first time, i felt so dragging wit dis kinda feeling.