kena paksa senyum.. :-)
mak, its ur birthday! its ur 56 birthday. dis time around - along knw it is different. it is totally different. i knw, u knw it well. and i knw ur good in keeping all dis thgs in u - so dat nobdy, no one of us - realized it well. along kenal mak - ur the one who teach me to look at the better side, even theres no hope at all. and ur the one who teach me to brace urself well, tho the world around u r tumbling upside down.
along adore u, mak. ur strong. stronger then anyone of us. and i knw - ur no super human as well. i've seen u crying in ur room dis morning. and i jst quietly walk off - wit the tot of u mght need sometime on ur own. u weep quietly dat u dun want anyone of us - ur kids and cucu-cucu mak tau, so. but its ok - i gez its ok to cry. to let it out, rather bottle thgs up and make thgs worst. cry, dat will make us normal. a human being.
i mght not knw how it is for u, mak. but i knw one thg - we r sharing the tot of losing. ur husband. and our abah. and no matter how it is, no matter how we try - abah dah tak de, and theres nthg we can do about it - except jst exactly wat u teach us - berlapang dada. abah mght not around us anymore - bu he is in everyone of us, and u knw dat well.
selamat menyambut ulang tahun kelahiran yg ke-56, mak. along doakan agar mak panjang umur, murah rezeki - dalam keimanan, ketaqwaan insyaAllah. semoga mak sihat tubuh badan, fizikal mental dan di berikan peluang kami anak beranak mak - balas jasa budi baik mak selama ni. mak jgn bersedih, coz if u do - dat'll make us, too. along dan adik2 will stand beside u - and be as good as we can - so dat mak wont feel lonely, and so u wont cry alone.
happy birthday, mak! along syg mak.. sgt2.
mak and abah,
Kellies Castle 2008.
its been a week now, abah left us. cukup seminggu abah kembali ke rahmatullah, and ari ni jugak hari jadi mak.. :-(
semlm along lalu thru jalan besar hala ke Bagan Serai ke rumah ngah. along lau dpn Masjid Tinggi, and sebelah masjid - is rumah baru abah. along singgah jap masjid, solat maghrib. its dark outside, along keep wonder how it is for abah. along solat maghrib, along duduk sekejap berdoa and berfatihah untuk abah. tenang sgt rasa - Allah saja yg tau.
and along cant help to hav tears runnin down my checks - abah jst beside the masjid, yet i am not sure where ur really at.
abah - seminggu tanpa abah is such a tough time for along. for us all. its too hard to be around wit u not wit us anymore. being an elder son, being the brother to all the adik2. tp tanggungjawab - along had no choice. it is not somethg yg susah pun, cuma perhaps - i need some time to adjust.
along doakan abah semoga tenang di sana. along doakan abah, agar di letak kan bersama mereka yg beriman, bertaqwa dan beramal soleh. semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan di sana, Ya Allah. along dan adik2 akan terus berdoa dan beramal - jst exactly the way abah didik kami - agar semoga abah tidak sunyi dan keseorangan di sana, insyaAllah. ameen ya rabbal alamin.
and abah - no matter where ur, wat u do - along syg abah. along rindu abah - so much dat hurts.
abah at angah's
few days seblm ke HUSM.
few minutes sebelum abah
aku found dis in angah's hp.