woke up at 3am - aku bgun Isya' and re-golek. tp tak bley lena. until Subuh at 6am - aku crashed again. tup2 sedar dah 10am. aku bingkas bangun, mandi, siap2 - keluar. main motive is - to rumah angah, since mak abah ada kat sana. and aku nak spend my weekend there, wit mak abah, angah and the minimonsters.
smpai Bagan Serai around 2pm. tu pun aku sia lunch siap2, bwk slow2. nthg to rush pun. abah nampak ok, mak ckp abah mkn selera. alhamdulillah. and abah - mak ckp - has been asking about his anak2 lelaki dia - kat mana and such. kinda nice to knw dat alrite.
by 4pm - aku bwk abah pi kedai barber kat Pekan Bagan Serai - abah need a bit of attention on his outlook; the goatee, janggut misai and such. baru je Soleh bwk pi trim last week, minggu ni muka abah dah penuh wit misai janggut. abah told me he'd prefer me to do the potong janggut misai at home - wish is he was like 'seriau' to do it kat kedai.. aku plak, never did it at home - aku 'seriau' and most of the time, aku ended up shaving kulit muka aku, instead of shaving janggut misai. aku pujuk abah - and alhamdulillah, abah ok wit the idea. he looked so well-kempt after done wit it. smpai rumah ngah - mak tanya if bley tak pi rumah mak long at Kg Larut Tin, Taiping. erm, kampung aku. lama dah tak pi sana pun.. so y not!
abah looked thrill by the time smpai rumah mak long. tho abah keep on asking where he at, he looked familiar wit his surrounding. and aku happy tg abah bersembang dgn mak long, mak cik - as if nthg happened. cuma abah - sometimes dia sembang ok, sometimes he cld be so out of context. still - abah relevant, coherant, and rational. and again - abah tend to repeat the same thg, again and again. and again - aku dah kinda used to it. aku jwb every single q's yg abah tnya, tho he asked it all - again and again, before. one thg about it - abah way better in expressing his feelings now. abah had no restriction telling me dat 'abah syg along, anak sulong abah..' kinda thang - a one thang yg he never say it before.
around Maghrib, mak ajak balik. abah pun dah nampak penat. singgah Simpang dinner - aku order abah mee mamak, his fav. and sate daging. also his fav. i feel like tears in my eyes, tgk abah mkn dgn sgt selera.. mmg abah suka sgt mee mamak. his fav pun. aku drive balik ke Bagan Serai dgn rasa puas ati. its been a great day spending i wit abah, wit mak around. nthg much i knw, but being able to put aside some time - to at least make em both happy, do the thgs they wanna do well. i am proud of being able to do dat, God sake.
shall be crashing soon. abah dah mkn ubat, dah tido. mak dok sembang2 dgn angah. mini2mons dok golek2 around me - masing2 dah kuyu layu, tunggu time nak tido.
aku wish for better trow. aku wish the very best for abah, esok. and days to come.
for i love him, so much - i hav no words for dat.