Saturday, April 30, 2011

turn back time? in ur dream.

i woke up early dis morning, wit a nice feeling in me. these past few weeks hav been a drag for me - but lately, i am starting to feel better again. and my heart feels a lot lighter.

there r quite a few thgs i realized recently. for one thg, i realized dat life is too precious t spend feeling sorry for myself, or to constantly ponder on thgs dat i dun hav the power to change anyway. i realized dat s'times, s'thg will spiral out of control, and even tho i never really expected it to happen, i'll jst see it unraveling bfore my very eyes, and i cant do anythg to stop it. i realized dat even tho there r some thgs dat i wished i cld've done differently, its no use agonizing over it, b'coz its alrdy happened.

i've been thru a lot in life, i think. i've made a lot of choices. lot of mistakes. but i've pushed thru somehow - wit Allah's willing, of course. i've been thru a lot of pain and heartaches, headaches - but i've also experienced love, happiness, and joy along wit the not-so-good thgs. and those wee the moments dat i wldnt trade fo anythg, at all.

today, i realized dat even if i were given a chance to go back, if i cld turn back time - i wld be willing to go thru em again. i mght hav a few regrets, but i wldnt change a thang. i am who i am now, b'coz of wat i've been thru. at the end of the day - wats really important is dat i've learned my lessons well and i cld move on wit my life armed wit those lessons, and become a better person - b'coz of em.

most ppl hav so many regret dat if only they cld turn back time, they wld change a lot f thgs. but i think - as for me thinking about it now, even if i hav to go thru all the 'bad thgs' again to experience the good - i think i most definitely wld. it mght sound some kinda masochistic to some - but life isnt jst all about the beautiful thgs. and u knw about dat well, yeah. we hav to experience the bad, to appreciate the good. after all - they r both part of life, aye?

i knw those wonderful memories will only be in the past now. but i'll be lookin back at em all wit smiles, and i definitely will treasure those memories - forever.


1 comment:

Aby QisIma said...

As Salam Shahe ...

I couldn't agree with you less about those paths in the past, what people always refer to as "experiences", could possibly change our mindset upon something or some point-of-views to a particular things happened back then.. like pictures, a single picture tells thousands stories.. right? so, in respect of our life, it's the same..

Allah has His own way for us to go through with this "loan" life, shall I say, so as to test us whether we were/are/will **3 sense of time** go on with our life to the aspect of what we ought to have at the end of our "journey".. Once we realised we had/have made the wrong turn, we are ought to "turn back time" as fast as we could, to get back to the right path.. thus, by then, we realised with the mistakes we made, we had come to a point that we were being tested by Allah, & Alhamdulillah being able to move on with a better aspect of life.. to me that's what the power of "turn back time" in respect to life..

What happened in the past shall be our guidelines to proceed with our current one as to, as well, plan our future ahead with what we have now.. As we grow older, or better still by saying in a proper manner, mature, we ought to know where we stand with respect to Allah's view, not just to the people around us.. (",)..

Cherish what you have now as the past guides u to the path of Allah, creating better life, shall in return being a better person.. Amin .. :-) ..