while u can..
while u can..
hav u ever wanted sthg in ur life so badly dat u were never meant to hav? hav u longed for sthg dat u think u cant live w/o, and yet u hav a feelin deep in ur heart dat its not meant for u?
lets face it - life really can be unfair (as i said before - who says life is fair anyway?), not to mention ironic as well. we can never tell which cards will be dealt to us. there r ppl who r blessed wit certain thgs in life, while others dun hav dat kinda luxury. but hav u experienced dat feelin of desire - for sthg u knw will make u very, very happy, and yet life just wont allow u to hav it? hav u ever go thru dat kinda feelin? if u've experienced dat feelin, then u'll probably agree wit me - dat it is bloody sucks, big time.
but then - dats life, rite? life's like dat. in wat ever decision we make, it cant be foolproof. and not everythg we want in life is good for us, or is meant for us - for dat matter. jst b'coz we feel a strong desire for sthg - doesnt mean we hav to get it no matter wat. oftentimes, we even desire for sthg dats totally wrong for us - for b'coz it makes us happy, we tend to be selfish. we want thgs for ourselves, even tho we knw in our hearts - dat we'll be better off w/o it.
but wat of it makes us hold on? r we jst bein stubborn, or obsessed? do we go against all odds jst to satisfy our inner cravings? or do we giv in to wat we feels right instead?
life is complicated.. i believe so, tho most of the time - u'd hear one thang - life is simple. life is complicated b'coz dis is not our real home. when we die, we will go to our real one, which is with God above. dats y we r never contented on Earth. but wat do we do when we want sthg dats not meant for us? wat if we want it so bad, we consumed by it and we spend our whole lives, chasing it?
wat we hav to remember is dat - there r thgs in life dat will always remain a dream. and u cant chase dreams forever - dats the fact. maybe u get to enjoy it for a while - maybe u experience it for a period of time, but it will never be urs forever. when dis happens - the only choice is - to let go. cherish it - then let it go. focus on the thgs dat ARE meant for u. u'll knw its not meant for u - when after yrs of strugglin and sacrificin, u still remain at square one.
wldnt it be better to jst learn to accept the fact dat u did ur best, but its jst not meant for u? let go and find thgs dat meant for u. letting go will definitely hurt in the beginning, but u'll happier in the long run..
but then again - its easier said than done. i wish i'd be stronger than i am, now.