Sunday, December 12, 2010


i am in deep shait dis coupla days - and i am sure dat doesnt help. i am not always a positive man. bad habits die hard. but i am tryin to, no.. scratch dat.. i am fighting to get back into the swing of thgs and dis lil slight really felt like a kick in the head.

may be i am just bein overly-sensitive lately. but i tot frens r the ones dat pull u up when ur havin a crappy days, weeks, months. no? haha.. nvm. i am not tryin to pass the blame. or perhaps - i am not really open up for ppl to let in and help. i shld be able to let it go. i am feelin hurt, b'coz i am lettin myself feel hurt. no one controls my pain, but me. i gez i am feelin dis way b'coz.. nah, forget it.

u were given this life because you’re strong enough to live it.

so - for another day, i am goin to point myself in the rite direction, try to make the rite choices.. and try to figure out where i belong.

to get up in the mornin only to knw that you’ll hav to face another obstacle takes strength. to smile when the only thg u can do is cry takes bravery. to act happy and laugh when u knw dat times are at their worst takes courage. to be joyous when the only good news is the best of the bad news takes support. to be there and help others thru the roughest times in life takes love..

there are two great days in a person’s life; the day they r born and the day they figure out why.

ur biggest challenge isn’t someone else. it’s the ache in ur lungs and the burning in ur legs. and the voice inside u dat screams can’t. but u dun listen, u push harder; and then u hear the voice inside u whisper can. and then u discover dat the person you thought u were is no match for the one u really are..

so, fail. be bad at thgs. be embarrassed. be afraid. be vulnerable. go out on a limb or two or twelve, and u will fall and it’ll hurt. but the harder u fall, the farther u will rise. the louder u fall, the clearer ur future becomes. failure is a gift, welcome it - so they say.. there are people who spend their whole lives wondering how they became the people they became, how certain chances pass them by, why they didn’t take the roads less traveled. but, unfortunately - those people aren’t u. u have front row seats to ur own transformation, and in transforming urself, u might even transform the world. and it will be electric, and i promise it will be terrifying. embrace that; embrace the new person ur becoming. dis is your moment. i promise you, it is now, now, not two minutes from now, not tomorrow, but really now. own dat; know that deep in ur bones. and go to sleep every night knwin that, wake up every morning rememberin dat. and then .. keep goin.

u change for only two reasons: u learn enough dat u want to, or u hurt enough that u hav to.

damn. i gotta read em all back - wat i've jst wrote.



Jaye Dubious said...

I have been feelin' the same way... But approaching my 30th birthday has me re-energized!! I am not sure what it is... but I am brave enough to face the future. Keep strong bro. I am pulling you up from across the waters!

jerry maguire, jr. said...