Friday, October 22, 2010


i am leaving the office now. i dun think i can stand lingering around all dis shait anymore. my eyes r aching. and so does my head. i feel like nauseated lookin dis the mess on my table, figures and such. i jst need to leave all dis behind. leave work, at work. i wish. but i dun think so.

apart of me dealing wit all dis shait - i try to keep myself bz. my head has been wandering around - all over places. i tried so hard to stay positive - dat thgs r goin to be alrite.. dat thgs r jst fine - but dammit, i jst cant help myself.

i am not sure if i've done wrong. i am not sure if all the steps i take cld bring me disaster. i knw somethg is wrong somewhere. somethg went wrong somewhere. i dun knw.

i am hungry. i dun feel good - emotionally, physically. i jst wanna get home. and throw myself in own crib.

damn i feel like backin off.


sdr ijoi said...

shah.. sabar yek.. (^_*)

Jaye Dubious said...

I know these feelings well bro. You have to remain strong and know that you are not alone. Times can be tough and life can seem really shitty. But, guess what? Life is beautiful. You can still find Heaven in a wildflower, and a universe in a grain of sand.

Thinkin of you from across the water! Be strong.

L♥ J