Tuesday, March 16, 2010

its Tuesday!








skipped lunch today. i din even hav my brunch like aku used to pun, today. i remember only had a big mug of Milo (euw!) and a various colors of pills and such - off aku went out to work. feel like kinda sleepy, yet it aint make any use pun when aku tried to close my eyes - it wont help pun. the fact is - i am havin all lobes of the brain - workin like shait. heh. penat la..



coupla stndts dtg lepak bilik aku durin lunch time tadik - sembang2 for they din go out for meals either. kinda nice to hav em around. the jokes, the gossips and such. they r the only thang - at time being - yg really makes me feel i am alive, havin my both feet on the ground.



reached home after the karaoke - final selection semlm, around 12.30am. aku totally knocked out - penat mental and fizikal. sampai rumah, pressed baju, mandi and solat - aku terus dozed off. by 5.30am - i had a nite mare, dragging myself off to bilik air mandi, solat and siap2 pi kerja.. i know theres nothg much in store for me today - kinda leisure - no classes no such; cuma aku need to make sure all yg aku dah re-scheduled dulu, worked out properly. so - i was there doin my clinical teachin kat Psyche Setting/Wards wit the stndts discussing on hallucination, delusion and a bit of MSE in general.



and by noon - aku dah settled. aku still hav coupla thgs bugging my head - i gez tak pe la.. its not like i am not doin my part. i worked hard for it. and may be i shld put a space in it - so dat everybdy can breath well, and do the thinkin and such. it hurts alrite. but i gotta think in better way - tryin so hard not to be a self-centered kinda bloke. its like que sera sera la kot - wat ever will be, will be. 'accept it as it is, and carry on wit life..', as someone told me. it hurts. really. but heh - do i hav any choices left, to choose?



and i gez - dats life.






2 comments:

ezam said...

masalah yg belum selesai2....


andai selesai satu masalah..pasti ada masalah lain menyusul......

tapi...

bayangkan hidup takde masalah....

jadilah kita seperti beruang koala..tersangkut diatas dahan sepanjang hari...kroh kroh kroh bunyikkk dia...

heh~

Prof. TunJedi said...

que sera sera..que lapis kah? hehe..cheer up babeh!