Thursday, February 25, 2010

its been days!

tiring day. physically, mentally. i was in my room all mornin - doin the marking on budak2 ni punya psychiatric case clerking/case study. ada yg doin well, awesome - ada yg mcm cipet. time history taking - bagus; but when it comes to mental state examination - hancur. so ptg tadi - during the presentation time - aku did somethg yg aku never cld think of; aku mengamuk sakan.. it wasnt about the presentation dat totally sucked anyway - ada la pulak 7 - 8 org stdnts yg bley anta lambat, rite before the lunch time.. and expected aku cld go thru em all by 3pm! heh. aku ni kayu ke haper? operator kilang ke? aku hilang sabar sgt2 - so, habis sumer kena tengking segala bagai..

Jagjit, Peter and the gang - i am sorry. i wasnt mad u ppl. i was just frustrated wit ur attitude.. u ppl were doin damn well; but taking thgs for granted.. Timmy - sorry i screamed the shait out at yr face. dis is life. ur no more in in ur lecture hall - ur in clinical area alrdy. to be or not to be - it depends on yrself. so stop hanging on some other ppl's neck, u gotta stand on ur stance.. TJ - change! walk ur talk. i know ur darn good when it comes to religious thang. but ur attitude does not go along wit ur talk well. i lose respect on u - for dat. u gotta change for betterment. dun let ppl make fun of u. ur one good kid. jst do wat ur preaching.

by 5.15pm - aku drove home wit kinda numb feeling, alrite. i had my mind back still in DK3; where aku screwed the boys/gals well. may be i shldnt acted dat way. but someone gotta do somethg.. dis kids - they know wat they shld be doin, jst dat they r taking thgs for granted. or may be they din know wat they r doin - and i was jst 'telling' em off; in my own kinda way.. *sigh* and for the first time in my life - aku taruk 'C' in coupla buku log budak2 neh - for anta report lambat and aku refused to go thru em all, at all. be it. thgs hav been said. and done. i do feel numb. but i hav no regret.

i started to hav the body aching, back again. third day in the new gym - Body Alignment - so far, so good. great music. no Jamal Abdillah, God sake wit his Gadis Malaya? Gadis Melayu wat ever not - or now wat? Gadis Satu Malaysia? bulshait. most of the guys in there r Chinese - so, they jst do wat they hav to do.. and leave. no hanky panky, no sweet talk, small talk, no 'apa khabar.. keje mana.. org baru ya.. salah angkat lagu tu.. mcm ni.. mcm tu..' kinda thang and no wossssssssshhhh ere and there wit no shirt in front of the cermin - as if 'see ppl, i am havin a bee-auw-tea-fool body in ere.. jeles tak?' kinda bulshait. heh. so i cld jst concentrate on my cardio, and my wt. lifting.. and i can doin it at nite, too. off to the gym for cardio semlm, and today - on chest and a bit of shoulder..

gotta work it out - for i wanna be in great shape for mid of next month. and my early April trip, insyaAllah.

think i shld go downstairs for my Brufen. heh.

owh, can i borrow ur iPod - i wanna run trow early
morn. i wanna lift some wt wit some
music as well..

i gotta hav music
so i can jog..

i cant jog
w/o any music!!



chen said...

u have a heart of gold

jerry maguire, jr. said...

chen -
u know wat ur saying? haha