Thursday, January 14, 2010


if i wanna tell u dat i am feeling cranky, groggy now - i bet u've heard it way too much lately. and probably, ur tired of it. but poor me - dats wat or dat how i am feeling rite now. i hit my MumuLand around 10.30pm last nite - pretty early, alrite; only to find myself wide awake by 2.30am in the morn., blinking, staring into the darkness - theres emptiness around me, inside me as well - in my head and in every single corner of it. i woke up - walked downstairs, mandi, made myself a mug of warm milk, and aku remember wat kak yang told me - aku solat hajat & tahjud kat bilik bawah. the silence around me was totally calming wit a bit eerie feeling in it. aku walked out to the porch, looked up to the dark sky - theres so many stars in it. i suddenly remember its been a long time since i spend some time under the nite sky - lookin up; enjoyin the moon and stars.. its been a while. and i remember feeling kinda numb at dat particular time. i dun remember wat i was thinking, but the feeling of sadness and such; hits me alrite.

theres so many things to be done - life, work etc. sometimes i jst wish i turn back the time. or i cld jst stop the time from keep on spinning and making me feel so damn helpless. life shld be better than dis. but sometimes - i dun know..

and theres one thg i need to be done, by end of the day - today. my hair. i think its about time to get rid of it, alrite.

i am gonna get my head - bald, again.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

keep searching alg, one day u will find it. keep trying to fulfill the emptiness.

honestly, u can't find it from everybody, mum, dad, bestfriend, even from me..

it was between You and Him. everybody said "Life is short".. but, either it is short or long we should remember that "Life is about totally surrender to Him".
Dun be sad, He Knows what is best for His creations.