sometimes, in life - we wont be getting exactly wat we want; as we want it to be.. or the way we want it to be. sometimes in life too - we wld be getting somethg a lil bit the same - tho it aint exactly as wat we r dreamin off. and yeah - sometimes in life - we will get the shait out of wat we exactly want all our life; jst like the way it is.
i dun know why the above thang keep on filling up my brain like coupla hrs back now. but i gez dats the way life is anyway. sometimes - we r dreaming thgs our own way, we r wishing it too hard for it to come true; u started to build up some hope, expectation. but when thgs aint workin the way it supposed to be (for u), ur hopeless. shattered into pieces. ur down in a deep shait alrite. then u started to blame life for wats not. u think dis shldnt be happening to u. and why dis freakin kinda life - treating u bad.
i've been thru dat alrite. and i am goin thru dat - not once. but again and again. somehow it makes me stronger. tho i am not sure how strong i am alrite. but i do know - each time i am goin thru the phase again in life - it'd be at the end of the cycle, in no time at all.
i love wat i am havin rite now alrite. nobdy can question dat. and nobdy can say dat i am wrong. i'll stand my stance well - tho it mght makes me sound a lil bit foolish and idiot.
i jst wanna a hav a lil bit of time of my life, once in a life time.. wldnt dat be a real mistake for me then? i know life wldnt be dat long - so jst let me hav dis, even jst for a while.