i nvr tot i'd ever reach dis point, but today - i feel as if i hav nothg left to say. rite now - other than dis 'nothg-to-say' thang, there is really nthg i wish to share, comment on, or discuss. there is nthg goin on dat makes me wanna tlak non-stop, and nothg so extraordinary dat i am overly excited about - trust me. thgs r good - far as i concern. nthg's wrong. its not too boring or dull either. its jst dat i dun feel like talkin at time bein. i think dis is bcoz i havent met any new ppl recently, and hav no pretty much nthg new to say to the ones i alrdy know well. sure i can say trow - as a new day - is kinda scaring me, but again - its nthg new. not like i never been thru it well before. i can probably say dinner was good tnite, but trust me - its always been equally good yeah. i worked and studied and got back home - but i dun think any of dat makes a difference to my existence.
i was afraid dat some time in the future - a day wld come when i wld stop wanting to write on dis silly billy kinda blog. tho i know - for the last few days, it doesnt seems like it. while there r times when i wld love to be able to write a blog entry on the spot (like when ur feelin grateful for be able to wake up breathin well, or jst when i am done wit my futsal wit the guys), i honestly dun think i feel any excitement at writin a blog when i dun really hav nthg to say in particular (let alone i dun hav any beautiful pics to squeeze in!), other than to recite my day's itinerary. i love updating my blog for i love to write, i need to ventilate my feelin to the right channel - not jst becoz i like receiving feedback from lots of ppl - yeah dammit - i mean, from a few ppl, yeah.. (like ppl really do care, eh) - but bcsly bcoz i like talkin about thgs. rite now - out of sudden - i feel like i've said enuff in life. its time for me to shut. too much talk and blabber is not good for anyone, anyways.
interestingly, none of dis is havin any effect on my mood, studies, work or anythg. i am doin thgs the same way i always did, except w/o tryin to start conversations wit random unknown ppl, and w/o tryin to keep speakin non-stop all the time. probably its good - may be its bad. frankly - i'd jst stop right ere and hit my crib. i am not sure if i am goin to udate dis blog again - trow. jst dun hold ur breath waiting for the update - again, like u care. it cld be as soon as next 5minutes or who knows - never ever again? (which is pretty unlikely). damn jst dat dis mght be my last blog ever.. makes me all nostalgic of when i started dis - last yr..
pretty strange, i know. dun make faces as if i am like dis since i am gonna get 'old' in 3hrs to come. i mean - not 'old', 'wiser' it is. or may be.. heh - possiblities. like is so full of possibilities.
oh well, gnite world! and Shahe - Happy 35th Bird-Day, in advance..