aku trully feel damn empty now. i feel as if theres a big empty, dark hole inside me. i mght know the reason y - or i mght be wrong for dat wldnt be the real reason after all. tot i'd be havin a nice great day today - i am not indeed. i jst dun hav the bldy mood to do anythg at all. i feel sad. i feel bad. and i feel fcukin dreadin to get thru dis shait.
i jst hate myself when i am like dis. an di wish i cld do smthg about it. really.