life is scary.
one day u wake up feelin like u can take over the world, and the next day u wake up feelin like all u wanna do is lay in bed, and hide from everythg.
ppl walk into ur life, grab ur hand, and lead u into the most beautiful path u've ever known and darn make u happy; yet s'times the same ppl let go of ur hand wit no warning and u become stranded on the same track, at the same place where u never thought u wld feel fuckin lost.
lets be honest - s'times everythg is goin so bloody great and it seems like nthg cld be wrong, but right when u begin to think of dat, s'thg horrible comes crashin down and all of a sudden more problem flooding around u and u jst feel so helpless, hopelessly bad.. so frigging, shitty alrite.
it is so hard to understand y such thgs happen in life - and i personally wish i had an answer to day 'why' u always ask urself - but all i can say is dat no matter how hard life gets, u gotta keep goin, for God sake.
the life around u will never stop soin on. i'll be honest and say dat s'times it makes me feel a bit worried, and it gives me kinda anxiety b'coz all i can think is, "will i able able to keep up? is dis gonna end? when? why? wat is everythg goes too fast?". but i realized dat bein scared and livin wit dat burden of runnin away from problems only slow me down, even more. and i've come to the point where i believe dat b'coz life never stops, it never will, and i shldnt stop either.
its ok to take breaks and to giv urself time to heal, but u cannot giv up and u cannot quit. remember dat. there is so much waitin for us to do and we simply cant giv fear the satisfaction of winnin when we can giv success, growth and accomplishment dat fcukin same satisfaction too, if not even more.
pls do believe in urself. do courage urself instead of doubting urself. keep it positive, fill ur heart wit gratitude for wat u alrdy hav, and always remain humble and true to who u r.
b'coz even if life is hella scary, not living it is way scarier.
first day workin for 2018. and there'll be class at 10.30am. i am still in the cloud-nine and i gez i am refused to step down pun. anyway, life's gotta go on, rite?
owh, btw - i hope it is not too late to wish u gais a Happy New Year!! 2018, alrdy eh? haih, cepat giler. lookin back at 2017.. nope, i am not gonna do dat. not now, at least. ha ha
hav a good day ahead, peeps! Allah bless u.